you know what..
its so damn fucking frustrating talking to different ppl..
in front of some.. u have to talk a certain way..
some, u have to hide ur real feelings, and talk to them in another way..
u need to THINK of the person feelings.. disregarding one's own..
you cant SHOW yourself..
the subject u talking about, whether the person you talking to can take it..
or even near comprehension..
fuck it..
why cant i be myself..
why i have to put on a mask, and take it off..
as if, im a show myself..
or rather.. i have to put on a show like
a improm-tu actor.. what.. im a entertainment device..
when im happy, and joyful, fun.. im *USEFUL*..
when im not happy, emotional.. im *RUBBISH*..
or rather.. some people find you USEFUL that time they seriously make use of you..
after you helped enough.. you are thrown away liek RUBBISH..
wad.. im a tissue paper, or just a toy.. FINE, IM NOT HUMAN..
I HAVE NO FEELINGS.. INHUMANE ME...
ya.. as if you dont know what am i going thru..
ok.. mayeb you really dont know.. well.. plainly..
IT HURTS.. and i thot i immuned to it already..
it jsut creeps in huh, when your hopes and truths clashes at the crossroads..
shit, how the hell would i know i fell so deep.. ass..
it ani't easy for me to trust anyone anymore..
unless seriously some God-sent miracle fall upon me..
as much as i try.. ha.. its hard..
oh ya.. when you try...
not necessary it will be the way you want it too also..
IRONIC HUH!!!
some so damn good fella will just take a knife out,
and stab you right there in THE heart.. BULLSEYE MAN!!!
and that fella cares as if you go dead or wad.. its not that fella itself anyway..
and yea.. that fella could be someone whom you cared for too.. ass..
i can be damn fucking evil if i want to.. its just whether i choose to..
push me far enough and see what i can do..
hate it.. hate..
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK....
Keagan's Theory : When K uses vulgarities like shit, you should know something is so God damn fucking pissing and killing kea off..
Disclaimer: The above fucking ass post is not directed at anyone, any gender, any fucking incidents that you thought it might be.. its a series of event that pushed me thus far enough to make me write down all these fucking ass post.. you want to imagine anything or think other wise.. it doesn't fucking concern me.. cos i said already.. its directed at NO ONE.. and NO PARTICULAR SINGLE INCIDENT.. just treat it as the annual fucked-up keagan festival..ass.. i give no shit anymore..
fuck it, bleeding love`
it'll be faster killing me`
